15 Relationship Mistakes You Keep Making Over & Over

Life isn’t like the movies. So why do we keep expecting it to be? Sometimes women get caught up in how they think relationships are “supposed to be” instead of just letting them be. In the movies it seems so easy, and men seem to just magically know what their women need, even before she fully knows what she needs. In the movies, romance just flows, with music playing on cue and everyone looks amazing all the time.

Really? Are you buying this?

Don’t let the movies taint your view of relationships or cause you to make mistakes. The movies aren’t real—they are just stories. Fantasies. Real life is messy and unpredictable. The goal is a healthy relationship, right? Romance and love can exist within a health relationship, but that’s not the ONLY thing that exists within a healthy relationship. It’s time to let go of all of that. See your man as who he is, and love him for who he is. Don’t let these common mistakes ruin your relationship. Here are 15 crazy relationship mistakes women make and how to avoid them.

1. Not Keeping Jealousy in Check.

girls night out

Your guy is still a guy, after all, so an occasional look at another woman is perfectly normal. Don’t flip out. Of course, if he’s continually looking and taking it to the next level, then it’s time to have a (calm) talk with him about it.

2. Expecting Him to Read Your Mind.

You do realize how complicated women’s minds are, don’t you? There are sometimes you may not even understand your own mind. So please, please don’t expect him to understand yours, much less know what is happening inside of it, especially if you aren’t telling him what’s up.

3. Turning Little Things into Big Issues

Ok, so he never picks up his socks. That’s a little thing. Simply ask him to throw them in the hamper—case closed. Don’t let this little thing turn into a big issue about how he never does this, or how he must not love you or he would keep things tidy. It’s only about the socks.

4. Forgetting He’s Your Significant Other, Not Your Girl Friend

Different people fill different roles in our lives. So you can’t go to the your man with a problem about girl-related stuff. So what? He’s there for you with everything else. Call your girlfriend when you need that girl advice.

5. Being Nit Picky

It’s so much easier seeing other people’s imperfections, and sometimes women are guilty of pointing them out in their men. Ladies, doing this helps no one. It makes you feel bad, and it makes him feel bad (he won’t often show it, which makes it easier for you to continue this bad behavior). When you focus on the negative, you get negative.

6. Not Letting Him Be Who He Is

Serious man with football watching TV

So he loves to watch sports, or tinker with cars, or season his food a certain way, or etc. Great! Celebrate his way of doing things. Every person is different—celebrate how he does things and don’t look at them as a hindrance to you. Let him be who he is.

7. Giving Him the Silent Treatment

Consoling his depressed girlfriend.

When you don’t get your way, as a way to gain the upper hand (or at least some attention) you just quit talking altogether. Please don’t resort to that method. It’s very passive-aggressive and emotionally unhealthy.

8. Not Being Honest

One of the worst ways we ruin relationships is by not being honest. Women, if you are keeping secrets or hiding something from your significant other, it’s time to stop. It will only hurt both of you in the long-run.

9. Not Appreciating Sex

Loving affectionate nude heterosexual couple on bed in affection

Sure, women typically don’t have as much constant sexual desire as men, but they can work to cultivate positive feelings and approaches to sex. When your man wants to be with you intimately, to him it’s the ultimate act of love. Appreciate his view of sex and keep sex a priority.

10. Not Taking Care of Yourself

Your man loves you and wants you to feel healthy and sexy and happy. The number one person to help you feel those things are yourself. Women are naturally giving creatures and tend to put themselves last—which at times means you are lacking sleep, wish you ate better, or don’t have time to do stuff you like. That is unhealthy for you and your relationship.

11. Not Saying ‘Thank You’

Never take your guy for granted. Sure, he’s supposed to go to work and mow the lawn. There are roles you fulfill in the relationship, too. Don’t you think he loves to hear you appreciate his hard work?

12. Having Unrealistic Expectations

You want him to look at you with googly eyes every night. You want him to get 6-pack abs. You want date night to be all flowers and sweet nothings. You want everything to go right. Well, guess what? He’s only human. Allow him to be. We should always shoot for the stars, but be content with what we have.

13. Treating Him Like a Slave

Woman in hat holding young man on handcuffs indoor

He wasn’t put on this earth to cater to YOU. So don’t make him do things you could do yourself. Of course, ask for help when you need it. Allow him to do little things for you. But don’t make him carry the weight of the relationship. You need to be all there, too.

14. Not Realizing that Life Happens

When things are going great in life, it’s easy to have a good relationship with your man. But when things happen, like a lost job, or money stress, or horrible neighbors, or a whole list of issues—sometimes we let the negative impact from those things affect how we treat each other. Don’t do it! Realize that life happens. Bad things will happen. Your relationship will be put to the test. It’s how you react that matters.

15. Not Showing Him How Much You Love Him

Say it every day with words and deeds. Be kind, do little things for him, spend time with him, kiss him. Tell him you love him and mean it. Treat him like a king, and you’ll feel like queen.

By Sylvia Smith at Never Liked It Anyway

4th of July Fiasco

Woman awaiting result of home pregnancy kit

“You did this on purpose!”

Tony spat he words at me, getting so close to my face that I had to back up. He had never hit me during our one year of marriage, but he had a bad temper and I constantly found myself wondering if his rage would ever escalate into a physical attack.

“Tony”, I said, shaking my head and keeping my voice low because I found that when I spoke slowly and softly, he tended to respond by lowering his voice, too. “I didn’t get pregnant on purpose.”

Heck, I wasn’t even sure I wanted to stay with the lug. I’d just found out a week ago that he’d been having an affair. But he was the father of my baby and he had a right to know, didn’t he? And I had to at least try to get over his affair and believe that he could change like he promised he would, especially if there was a baby involved.

“It’s probably not even mine,” he said, narrowing his eyes as he glared at me.

I could feel the heat rise to my face. How dare he?! Again, I lowered my voice. “It’s yours.” And I couldn’t resist adding, “I didn’t have an affair, you did.”

Turning to set my mug of tea on the kitchen table, I could feel tears stinging the corners of my eyes. But I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of knowing his words hurt me. This wasn’t how it was supposed to be when a married couple found out they were pregnant. There were supposed to be hugs and congratulations, and tears of joy, not sadness.

I felt like I should at least try to stay with him for the baby’s sake, but I couldn’t help wondering if being around him was a good idea. It would be better to raise a baby by myself than to raise him or her with a father who obviously didn’t want to be mar­ried to me.

But I hated breaking that promise I’d made to myself —the one that I’d made as a kid. I swore I’d never get a divorce if I had children. I’d gone through so much pain as I watched my parents fight over every little thing through their divorce. One or the other was always making my two sisters and I take sides. But this baby hadn’t even been born yet. Leaving Tony might just be the best thing for the baby—and me.

Tony made the decision before I could think about it anymore. “I’m outta here,” he said.

l whirled to face him. “What? Where are you going?”

He’d started walking down the hall­way toward the front door. “I’m com­ing back for my things tomorrow morning at ten. Don’t be here.” Then he grabbed his leather coat off the hook by the front door. Slinging it over his shoulder, I caught a glimpse of the handsome man I’d fallen in love with — tall, dark hair, even darker eyes with a slim, athletic build. And the fact that he rode a Harley was the icing on the cake.

“I want a divorce, Sandy,” he said, jotting me from the temporary trance his physique had put me in.

Before I could respond, he was gone.

My cell phone chimed as I juggled my four-month-old, Lily, in one arm and my Biology book in the other. Setting the book back on the tiny kitchen table and glancing at the caller ID, I was shocked to see it was Tony. I hadn’t heard from him in a year. Aside from the flowers he had sent to the hospital after Lily was born, he hadn’t tried to be a father at all.

And I hadn’t missed him one bit.

Biting my lip as the phone rang again, I flipped it open, deciding I’d have to deal with him sooner or later anyway, so I may as well make it now.

“Hey Tony,” I said, trying to get right to the point.

“Hey,” he said, using his most charming voice. I knew that voice well. Tony really knew how to use his charisma to his advantage. And sex appeal was one of his best attributes. But too much time had passed, and he’d shown his true colors, so that sort of charm wasn’t going to suck me in anymore.

I moved the phone between my shoulder and ear, using both hands to slide Lily into her highchair. She cooed as I handed her a frozen teething ring.

“Is that Lily?” Tony asked, sounding excited. “Put the phone by her ear. Let her daddy talk to her.”

Taking a deep breath and blowing it out, I patiently held the phone out so Lily could hear his voice. I wish he’d hurry up and get to the point of his call. All this time, he hadn’t called or visited, so why now?

Taking a seat in the wooden chair across from Lily in the small apartment kitchen, I brought the phone back to my ear, and glanced at the textbook on the table. Big quiz tomorrow and I have to get Lily down fora nap so I can study.

“Tony,” I started, trying not to sound annoyed. I was glad he wanted to know about Lily, but I didn’t have time for games. “Why are you calling?”

He got straight to the point. “I want to see Lily.”

My heart did a little flip, but honest­ly, I wasn’t sure if it was because I was glad for Lily that she had a father who was going to take an interest in her, or because I was just a little bit scared to have him be a part of her life.

“Okay,” I said, not exactly sure how to proceed.

“Can I stop by tonight?” he asked, taking advantage of my hesitation.

It would be fine. He’d meet her in the safety of my apartment, and then knowing him, he’d disappear for months again. But I’d take what she could get.

I gave him the address of the farm and said, “Call when you get in the dri­veway. It’s a little confusing when you get here to figure out which barn we’re in.”

“You live in a barn?” he asked.

“A loft. An apartment above the barn.”

Two hours later, I watched out the window as Tony pulled up—dressed in head-to-toe black leather—on his motorcycle.

Romantic portrait handsome biker man on a bike

In spite of myself, I couldn’t help but yearn for the days when I used to hop on the back, hold his taut abs, and breathe in the scent of him. Shaking my head, I pushed the thought to the back of my mind and reminded myself that he’d been absent through my entire pregnancy and the first four months of our daughter’s life.

Picking up Lily—who was dressed in a soft pink long-sleeved one-piece outfit with a matching headband over her almost-bald head, I headed for the door to meet him.

“Baby!” he said, his voice loud as I opened the door. I could smell alcohol on his breath.

Lily let out a wail loud enough to catch the attention of the two sheep­dogs—Kylie and Wylie—as they were making their rounds. They came run­ning to the bottom of the wooden steps, both of them barking as if they were ready to help if I needed them.

“Shhh,” I said, trying to quiet Lily as I turned to move back inside the apart­ment.

“Geezer” he said, stepping inside and banging the door closed, making Lily cry even harder. “Is she always this loud?”

My maternal instinct made me pull her closer to protect her. “You scared her,” I said, shifting to hold her head close to mine as hiccups started to interfere with her crying. “Babies scare easily.”

“Sorry,” he said, softening his voice and taking a tentative step closer.

Lily finally quieted enough so that I could hold her over my shoulder and rub her back to try to ease her hiccups.

Tony moved behind me, I guessed to get a better look at Lily’s face.

“Hey there,” he said, his voice gen­tle.

But I could feel Lily’s body tense just before she started to wail again. Tony moved in front of me, putting his hands over his ears like a ten-year-old.

Moving to the kitchen, I said, “Maybe she’s hungry.” I knew she wasn’t—I’d fed her just twenty min­utes earlier, but I didn’t want Tony to think his own daughter hated him.

He followed me into the kitchen as I turned on the stove to warm a pot of water and pulled a bottle out of the refrigerator.

“Why don’t I help?” Tony said, reaching for the bottle.

I was pleasantly surprised. The old Tony never offered to help with any­thing in the kitchen. Handing him the bottle, I said, “Just let it simmer in there, then we’ll check the temp on our wrist before we give it to her.”

He nodded, and the corner of his mouth lifted into a small smile, reveal­ing the dimple I found so attractive on him. I had to remind myself he’d ditched me when I needed him the most. This wasn’t the time to be charmed by him. And as he reached out and pushed a strand of stray hair that had escaped my ponytail, I real­ized that that was exactly what he was doing—trying to charm me.

Clearing my throat, I glanced at the pot. “I think it’s ready now.”

He let his fingers gently brush my cheek before he turned to heat the bottle.

When the temperature was right, I said, “Let’s sit on the sofa to feed her.”

“She’s beautiful,” he said, following me into the small adjoining room. There was just enough space for a small chair and a short sofa—all from the second-hand store. Tony’s pres­ence in the room made the room feel even smaller than usual.

He took a seat on the sofa next to me and watched as I lowered Lily’s head into the crook of my elbow and lifted the bottle to her lips. She placed a hand over mine and Tony bent closer.

“Do you think I could feed her?” he asked.

I bit my lip, saying a quick prayer that she wouldn’t burst out crying, and Tony smiled and settled back into the sofa, readying his arms.

I leaned to transfer Lily. For a sec­ond, as I lowered her to his arms, I thought she might be okay. She opened her eyes wide and looked from mine to Tony’s face and then at the bottle I lowered to her lips.

But as she opened her mouth and took a deep breath, I readied myself, and I wasn’t disappointed.

Lily let out a wail that made her face turn beet red and should have cracked the windowpanes. Cringing, Tony half-stood and dropped her back into my arms.

As if all this commotion wasn’t enough, I heard a loud rapping noise over Lily’s screaming, and noticed a shadow at my door.

Bouncing Lily up and down as I tried to calm her, I crossed the room and headed for the door.

I pulled open the door to find Dave’s smiling but concerned face. “Hey what’s all the racket up here?” he asked, reaching out to touch Lily’s arm.

Dave lived at the farm next door, and had what seemed like a thousand cousins in the area. He was a natural with babies.

To my amazement, Lily stopped crying and leaned toward Dave.

She practically slid into his arms as he handed me a stack of papers and I transferred her to him.

“Who’s this Bozo?” Tony said, appearing behind me. I’d almost for­gotten he was there.

Dave froze for an instant, a worried look on his face as he glanced from me to Tony dressed in all his leather. But Dave—wearing a weathered heavy flannel jacket, worn jeans, and a smile on his face—stretched out a hand.

“Dave Mullen. I’m in charge of the farmers’ markets around here.”

With the two men standing so close together, I couldn’t help but to compare them. Tony, with his dark eyes and hair, tall, and leather-clad from head to toe; and Dave, who stood almost a head shorter than Tony, was fair-haired with a slightly smaller build, and a smile—there was always a smile on Dave’s face.

After giving him a very obvious once-over from head to toe, Tony finally took Dave’s outstretched hand. “I see you spend a lot of time here,” he said, sending me a knowing look.

“Well, I —” Dave started.

Tony shrugged and glanced at Lily. “Well, the kid hates me anyway, so I don’t know why I bothered.”

Dave’s face softened as he looked down at Lily in his arms. “Nah, she doesn’t hate you. She just likes to be charmed a little bit,” Dave said, his whiskey-smooth voice calming Tony and Lily at the same time.

Tony grunted, but stared at the now-cooing Lily and I could see his face lose its earlier tension. Dave had it right. Tony was uptight. Why hadn’t I thought of that earlier? He was ner­vous, that was all.

“Well, didn’t mean to interrupt any­thing,” Dave said, using his chin to point at the stack of flyers he’d handed to me. “Just wanted to drop off some flyers in case you wanted to publicize the farmers’ markets since they open in two weeks.”

“No, you’re not interrupting, why don’t you come in for a few minutes,” I said.

But Dave shook his head. “No thanks. Got some more stops to make to other farmers.”

“Okay,” I said, looking at the bright orange papers. “I’ll help get the word out.”

I couldn’t help noticing how he held Lily in just the right position that made her happy and yet let her look around at the same time. He was a natural.

Dave nodded and looked from me to Tony. “I’m off, then.” And he started to hand Lily back to Tony.

Tony put his hands in the air and started to back up. “Uh-uh, not going there again,” he said, gesturing with his hand for Dave to hand her back to me.

I took my baby and bent to inhale the sweet smell of her head.

With a quick smile and wave good­bye, Dave jogged down the old wood­en steps.

‘Well he’s very comfortable with Lily. He your boyfriend?” Tony asked, watching Dave climb into his pickup truck.

“Dave?” I asked, waving back as Dave stuck a hand out his window to wave good-bye. “No,” I said, bringing my attention back to Tony and turning to head back inside. “He’s a business acquaintance. He runs the farmers’ markets around here and I’m in charge of the markets for this farm. We set up a vendor tent three times a week and sell produce.”

“Oh,” Tony said, following me back inside.

Over the next two weeks, Tony dropped by a few more times. Each time, he seemed a little more relaxed with Lily.

She still cried when he tried to hold her, so for now, he just sat next to me as I held her. At least he was still trying to be a father and not taking things personally. And Lily wasn’t the only one who’d dropped her defenses. I, too, was starting to trust Tony again.

On a particularly mild early-May evening, Tony helped me put Lily into her crib and I was touched when he started to sing a lullaby. Tony? The big, leather-wearing brute who could out-drink a college kid was singing a lullaby? Maybe he had really changed.

And when he stopped singing, and turned to pull me in his arms, the moment felt right. He bent his head and his lips brushed mine. I felt an old familiar yearning to let him hold me, protect me, make me forget about the stress and worries of life. That was what he was good at.

Quietly, so we wouldn’t wake Lily from her sleep, we crept out of the bedroom and back to the sofa where Tony tenderly kissed me, reminding me why I fell in love with him years ago. He let his fingers roam to the soft part of my throat and gently brushed the tender skin as he searched my mouth with his tongue.

And on the small couch, we made love and slept in each other’s arms until Lily’s soft coos and cries awak­ened us the next morning.

Cuddling

But two nights later, when I heard a loud motorcycle engine followed by banging on the door at two in the morning, I found Tony reeking of alco­hol and perfume.

“Hey, Babe,” he slurred.

I had to bite my tongue to keep from lashing out at him. Drunk? On a motorcycle? I wasn’t his wife anymore, and I was beginning to remember why I was better off without him. But a nagging voice reminded me that he was Lily’s father and I had to do what I could to keep him in her life.

“Come on in,” I said, holding the door open. “You can sleep on the couch.”

When Lily and I got up the next morning, he was still passed out on the sofa, and we left him a note that said we were heading out to the farmers’ market for the day.

“Hey, is that asparagus?” I heard a friendly voice saying from behind me.

“Dave!” I said, turning from the truck I was unloading. He was wearing layers—we all were because mornings were still chilly, even though it was June—and by afternoon we would be sweating in T-shirts. That’s how the farmers’ market was this time of year.

“Here,” Dave said, stepping forward to grab a crate of broccoli from the back of the pickup truck. “Let me help,”

“Dave,” I said, letting him help with one crate because I knew he wanted to help. “Alexis is with me, we can han­dle it.”

As if on time, fifteen-year-old Alexis, the farmer’s daughter, came sprinting across the parking lot, giggling and carrying a pastry in one hand and holding Lily on her hip with the other. I had to laugh at them—bartering our vegetables for pastries from the local baker who also had a stand setup.

‘Well if you told me Lily was here, I would have offered to help unload her first!” Dave said, racing over to pick up Lily and twirl her around. Little tufts of her growing soft blonde hair flittered and flew as he turned her, and she squealed in delight, happy to see Dave.

I couldn’t help but notice the differ­ence between her response to Dave and her still-hardened attitude toward Tony.

Although Dave had a truck full of strawberries and blueberries to unload, he lifted Lily high and made motor noises.

This is what a father should be like, I said to myself.

And when Dave looked at me and threw me a giant smile, I couldn’t help but to compare the way my heart did a little flip in my chest when I looked at Dave to the way my heart sunk when Tony was around.

A month later, I cradled the cell phone between my shoulder and ear as I unloaded another crate of tomatoes from the pickup truck. The July heat was already oppressing, even at eleven o’clock in the morning.

“My mother wants to meet Lily,” Tony was saying.

“Tony, I know Lily is warming up to you, but I don’t know if it’s a good idea for you to take her out by yourself,” I said, knowing he’d had very little experience with things like changing diapers and nap time.

“Look, you can meet us there. It’s a Fourth of July party. You can stay and party, or pick up Lily and take her back. It’ll be for just a few hours. That’s all I’m asking. I can borrow my mom’s truck. I think I’ve shown I can handle it”.

I bit the inside of my lip, afraid to take a chance, but at the same time afraid to let him slip out of our lives if I said no.

“Okay,” I said, even though my gut was screaming, no! “Pick her up at ten—you can use my car seat—and I’ll be there by noon to pick her back up.”

“Ah come on, Sandy. The parade doesn’t even start until two. It’ll be her first parade.”

As two more customers approached my farm stand, I shook my head. “Lemme call you back,” I said, and disconnected before he could argue his case.

By the time we finished folding our tent and loading the empty crates back onto the truck, I was ready for a nap. It had been a long, hot day. Even Lily looked beat, asleep in the shade in her stroller next to Alexis, who was resting her head against the tree stump.

Friendly woman tending an organic vegetable stall at a farmer's market and selling fresh vegetables from the rooftop garden

But Dave—true to his nature—was smiling, and there was still some pep in his step.

Shaking my head, I smiled at him. “Where do you get the energy, Dave? You look like you’re ready to start the day and I’m ready to crash.”

He took two empty crates from my arms and turned to load them on the truck. “I’m loving this weather and lov­ing that I get the day off tomorrow.”

“Yeah,” I said, glancing over at Lily. “Fourth of July.”

“What’s wrong?” he said, taking a step closer to me, close enough that I could smell the scent of sweet corn on him. He brushed my cheek to move a tendril of hair that had fallen from my ponytail and we both looked at each other. His touch sent an unexpected tingle down my spine. Had he felt it, too?

His eyes grew wide and he lifted a brow. Then he backed up a step, took a deep breath, and blew it out. “So how’s Tony?” he asked, his expression suddenly changing from soft to serious.

The drape of temporary distraction dissipated and I frowned and cleared my throat. “Yeah. Tony,” I said, kicking a pebble from the asphalt with the tip of my sneaker. “That’s a problem.” “What’s up?” Dave asked, picking up two more empty crates and loading them into the truck.

I grabbed the last two crates and headed for the back of the truck. “He wants to take Lily tomorrow.”

“By himsetf?” Dave asked, turning to face me as I slammed the tailgate shut.

I nodded. “I don’t know what to do.”

He didn’t say a word, just glanced over at Lily and then back at me. That was one thing I really liked about Dave—he was a friendly, kind person, but he didn’t talk much and I could tell he didn’t want to butt in.

But the fact that he was such a kind person made me want his advice. “So what do you think I should do?” I asked, shading the sun from my eyes with my hand as I glanced up at him. He wasn’t overly tall, but he had quite a few inches on me.

With a sigh, he glanced over at Lily again. “What do you want to do?”

I punched his arm playfully and he caught my hand and held it in both of his. “No fair,” I said, feeling my heart pump faster at the way he was holding my hand. “That’s a cop out.”

He shrugged and dropped one of his hands so that now we were hold­ing hands and leaning against the truck, looking over at Lily and Alexis napping under the maple tree.

“What if I let him take her, and then you come with me to pick her up?” I said.

I turned to look at him and he opened his mouth to talk, but then closed it.

“What?” I asked.

He took a deep breath and blew it out. “Tony.”

“What about Tony?”

“He’s Lily’s father.”

“And?” I asked, not sure where he was going with this.

“And I don’t want to get between you and him. I don’t want to do any­thing to jeopardize Lily’s parents being together.”

Wow. My heart did a funny flip in my stomach and I realized I’d been nothing short of stupid trying to make things work with Tony. Here I had this guy—hard-working, funny, kind, and selfless guy—right under my nose that cared enough for me to step aside and let me have what I needed.

Giving his hand a squeeze, I said, “Tony is Lily’s father, but he’ll never be anything more than that to me.” Without giving him time to respond, added, “Let’s go get Lily and Alexis and go home.”

The next morning, with my heart in my hand, I watched as Tony took off with Lily in the pickup truck next to him, leaving a trail of dust behind. I’d sniffed Tony’s breath for traces of alcohol, I’d made sure Lily was strapped in her seat properly, and made sure her diaper bag had all the essentials—diapers, wipes, powder, change of clothes, bottles. So why did I still feel so scared?

It wasn’t until ten minutes later, when Dave showed up at my door, that I finally relaxed.

“How’d it go?” he asked, opening the squeaky screen door and stepping inside my apartment.

“Smoother than I thought,” I admit­ted. “Lily didn’t cry at all, and he seemed very attentive.”

“You’re counting down the hours until you get to see her again, aren’t you?”

I smiled, wondering how he could know me better than someone I’d been married to for a year.

“I’m glad you’re coming with me to pick her up,” I said, leaning forward to grab his hand. He’d not only offered to come with me to pick up Lily, but to keep me company while she was gone so I didn’t worry. He said he had a plan.

“Okay,” I said, holding both his hands with mine. “You said you were coming to distract me. So how are you going to distract me for two hours?”

“Well,” he said, a crooked smile forming on his face. “At first I thought we could go for a walk around Blackberry Lake, but now —” he said, leaning closer so his face was just above mine.

“You’re getting a better idea?” I asked, tilting my head and closing the distance between us.

“Hmmmm,” he said, bending to touch his lips to mine and pulling me against him.

We were a half-hour early to pick up Lily. The usually-quiet streets were crowded with parked cars and people wandering everywhere. And the sound of tubas and other brass instruments permeated the air as the bands warmed up.

“Right here,” I said, pointing at Tony’s parents’ house along the parade route.

“Want to get out here?”  Dave asked, idling the truck. “I can circle the block and come back for you since there isn’t any parking.”

I nodded. “You don’t mind?”

He just smiled and I licked my lips, remembering how his mouth had felt just an hour ago as we got to know each other’s bodies.

“Thanks!” I said, leaning in to kiss him, and then hopping out of his truck to head for Lily.

As I crossed the yard to the house, I had to weave between coolers, empty beer bottles, and portable grills. Tony had a lot of friends, but everyone he knew seemed to show up for July Fourth, even lots of people he didn’t know.

I spotted Pete, a friend of Tony’s. He was red-faced from too much alcohol. “Have you seen Tony?” I hollered over the loud music playing from some­one’s car stereo.

“Sandy!” Pete said, taking a step forward to hug me, but almost tripping over his own feet he was so drunk. I caught his elbow, breaking his fall, and then helped him lean against a parked car.

“Yeah,” he slurred, “I think he’s up there,” he pointed to the front porch.

As I started up the front steps, something made me turn to the street.

I spotted Dave—double-parked next to Tony’s mom’s blue pickup—holding a crow bar. With disbelief, I watched as he smashed in the truck window. Tony must have seen it at the same time I did, and he came barreling down the front steps, almost knocking me down.

“What the hell is that guy doing?” Tony asked, taking off running across the yard as I followed.

What is Dave doing? He’d always seemed so mild-mannered. I knew he didn’t exactly approve of Tony, but why would he smash the truck window?

But as I ran across the grass, weav­ing between bodies and coolers, I could see Dave pulling something out of the car.

“Oh no! Lily!” I yelled.

Tony, in his drunken state, didn’t see a cooler in front of him and tripped and fell. I sped past him, running for my baby.

Panting, I couldn’t believe my relief when I got closer and could hear Lily screaming. She was red-faced and sweat-soaked.

As I raced next to Dave and looked down at her as he laid her in the shade, he said, “She’s okay, but an ambu­lance is on the way. She was locked in the truck. Window was cracked, but —”

Tony staggered next to us, falling on the ground. “Crap! Forgot to get her out after I took the case of beer to the porch.”

“How long ago, Tony?” I asked, fist­ing my hands in his shirt and pulling his face close to mine in an effort to sober him up as I heard sirens approaching.

He collapsed against the tree and started shaking his head as Dave ran out to the street to flag down the ambulance.

Two weeks later, Lily happily sat in her stroller with a portable fan and her favorite babysitter, Alexis, by her side in the shade of the farmers’ market.

“Think she’ll be scarred by the events of the Fourth?” Dave asked, stepping beside me.

The sun was beating down on us and it was time to fold up shop for the day. I’d sold all of the tomatoes, sum­mer squash, peppers, and melons that I’d brought, and Dave had sold all of his corn.

“I think she’ll remember the hero who saved her life,” I said, reaching to put an arm around Dave’s waist.

Dave started shaking his head. He wasn’t too comfortable wearing the hero label, but without him Lily could have, well, I just couldn’t even think of what could have happened.

The EMT’s estimated she’d been left in the truck for ten minutes, and the window was cracked, but another ten minutes in the hot July sun could have meant disaster. She’d needed an IV to hydrate her, but she’d been released from the hospital that same day.

Tony’s guilt was keeping him at bay. He sent some money every week now, but I think he knew I’d never allow an unsupervised visit again.

And I no longer felt like I was break­ing any promise I’d made to myself. After all, I thought as Dave pulled me in for a kiss, Lily loves Dave. And I do, too.

Just last night, he asked me to marry him. And when a hero asks to marry you, you just gotta say yes. So I did.”

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The Best of My Three Lovers

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I listened to the howling wind and watched the snow fall around me and waited for death. I had neither the strength nor the will to go on. I had no reason to live. I had destroyed my life years ago when I married Lawrence Williams. Now, I had come to this wilderness searching for the one man who held my heart in his hands. Well, I had found him.

“Oh, Tim!” I sobbed to the wailing wind. “Why didn’t I realize years ago that I loved you?”

It was too late for regrets. My baby was dead. My other son was with Lawrence, and I would never see him again. I could never go back and change my life. I couldn’t live with the pain another moment. I closed my eyes and dreamed of what my life might have been with a man named Tim O’Brien. . . .

I had met him when I was seventeen. I remembered his teasing grin, and those piercing eyes that were so full of life, looking at me from the kitchen of the little café where we both worked. He cooked and I waited tables all night on weekends. He had dropped out of school and was living with his sister. I was still in high school, saving every dime for college. I had big dreams. I wanted to be a writer or an artist . . . whatever would bring me success and a ticket out of the poverty I’d been born into.

Tim enjoyed life as it was. He seemed to have no ambitions. He never cared that much about money. Good friends and good times were the best things in life to him . . . and, of course, his music. Tim played the guitar with a natural flair. He took it everywhere with him. Read More!

Add Mystery & Thrills to Your 2016 Beach Reads

HELP written in a bottle

By Katherine Sharma

It’s time to pack for that summer vacation, including, of course, a couple of mysteries or thrillers to get the heart pounding and the blood chilled despite the lazy, sunny days ahead.

roadHere are some reviewer-favored suggestions that you may also want to add to your beach reading list. John Hart, who has won two Edgar Awards back to back, returns with the crime thriller Redemption Road, in which damaged yet courageous North Carolina police detective Elizabeth Black, who is white, faces a media a circus and the prospect of criminal charges after gunning down two black men sexually abusing 18-year-old Channing Shore in an abandoned house.

 

missing girlsNorth Carolina features again in All the Missing Girls by Megan Miranda, a noted YA author with an adult fiction debut: A prep school counselor makes a return visit to her North Carolina hometown–and the unsolved disappearance of her best friend after their high school graduation a decade earlier.

 

 

 

let me dieLet Me Die in His Footsteps by Lori Roy, another Edgar winner, evokes Southern gothic tradition with her tale of two families, first in 1936 and then in 1952, and an evil passed down the generations in a small Kentucky town.

 

 

 

 

girl gardenThe Girls in the Garden by New York Times best-selling author Lisa Jewell leaves the South and takes us to a midsummer night’s party for neighbors on a communal garden square in London. But the secure urban oasis is shattered when preteen Pip discovers her 13-year-old sister lying unconscious and bloody in a hidden corner of a rose garden, drawing the reader into a mystery about the dark games children and adults play.

 

 

little liesMemory, madness and lies also bring danger to psychiatric ward resident Dr. Zoe Goldman in Little Black Lies by Sandra Block. Goldman is dedicated to helping patients but she is also wrestling with her own demons, seeking to piece together the truth of her mother’s death from nightmares about a fire and her adoptive mother’s dementia-tattered memories.

For more Publishers Weekly “best summer reads” in the mystery category, check out
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ABOUT  KATHERINE SHARMA

Katherine Sharma’s family roots are in Louisiana, Oklahoma and Texas. But after her early childhood in Texas, she has moved around the country and lived in seven other states, from Virginia to Hawaii. She currently resides in California with her husband and three children. She has also traveled extensively in Europe, Africa and Asia, and makes regular visits to family in India. After receiving her bachelor’s degree. in economics and her master’s degree in journalism from the University of Michigan, Katherine worked as a newspaper and magazine writer and editor for more than 15 years. She then shifted into management and marketing roles for firms in industries ranging from outdoor recreation to insurance to direct marketing. Although Katherine still works as a marketing consultant, she is now focused on creative writing.

I’m In Love With My Married Patient

Male Doctor Examining Female Patient In Emergency Room

Stephanie was seething. “If you think for even one minute that you’re going to put that thing in me, then you’ve got another thing coming, Randall Scott.”

I stopped dead in my tracks and made a vain attempt to hide the smirk tugging at the corners of my mouth. She was a sight, but even under extreme duress her emerald green eyes hadn’t lost their spark or challenge, intriguing me. I approached her gurney cautiously and held up the catheter in mock surrender. Her long, fiery hair lay tangled all around her with soft tendrils clinging to her sweaty forehead. Beads of perspiration formed along her temples and began a slow descent down the side of her freckled cheeks.

I stood next to the gurney looking down into her eyes and calmly stated, “You know you can’t undergo a Cesarean Section without a catheter.”

She started to protest, but again I held up my hand. “I could nick your bladder, Stephanie. Please don’t be unreasonable. As soon as the baby is born and you can get out of bed, I will have it removed . . . I promise.”

Tears formed in her eyes, enhancing the depth of their color even more. Seeing her like that tore me in two. I wanted to hold her and soothe her fears, but I knew I had to remain professional. The situation clearly outweighed any personal desires. The bottom line I had to force myself to remember was that I was still her doctor. Regardless, it didn’t stop me from wishing I could relinquish her care to another colleague.

So much had happened since we’d first met. I felt as though we had known each other forever. I couldn’t imagine not having her in my life. She had to be the one to act first. I’d laid all my cards out for her a month earlier. Now it was her turn to make the next move, and I vowed to accept whatever decision she would make.

Handing the catheter to the nurse, I took Stephanie’s hand. It was the most I could offer her at that moment. She squeezed it tightly as a contraction hit her. Once it subsided, the nurse placed the catheter and wheeled her into the operating room. A few minutes later I joined her once more.

Throughout the operation, I hummed softly in an effort to ease her anxiety. Slowly and calmly, I explained each step. Her only acknowledgment was an occasional nod. Never before had I been so acutely aware of the size and location of the incision, my patient’s anxiety, or my own abilities.

“All right, Stephanie, you’re going to feel a lot of pressure right now . . . here we go,” I recalled telling her.

A low grunt emerged from her throat, followed by the piercing wail of a newborn infant. I handed the newborn to Dr. Richardson, Stephanie’s pediatrician, announcing, “You’ve got a beautiful baby girl, Stephanie—shocking red hair and all!”

“Thank you, Randy . . . thank you so much.” She quietly sobbed in relief.

Her voice and words filled me with more satisfaction and happiness than I’d ever felt in my entire career. It wasn’t until Dr. Walsh, who was assisting, cleared his throat and brought me back to the present that I realized our level of intimacy was evident to everyone in the room.

I went to work removing the placenta and closing the wound. Occasionally I would glance up at Dr. Walsh, catching the disapproving scowl on his face. I was relieved when the procedure was finished and Stephanie was in recovery. My relief was to be short-lived, because my colleague wasted no time in interrogating me.

“I wasn’t aware that you and your patients are on a first-name basis.”

“Most of us are not,” I offered casually.

Dr. Walsh removed his surgical scrub cap and adjusted his glasses. I couldn’t help but think that the old man should leave the cap on. I’ve always detested the way some balding men grow the sides of their hair long, just so they can stretch it across the rest of their scalp. At least when he wore his cap, no one could tell the difference.

“So . . . Mrs. Adler is different?” he asked.

“Yes, we’re neighbors.” When Walsh continued to stare, I reluctantly continued. “She and her husband purchased the Victorian house, two houses over from mine, about a year ago. It’s customary on our block to welcome new neighbors to a barbecue. Introductions were made, and when she became pregnant, she and her husband chose me as her obstetrician.” I shrugged my shoulders with indifference, secretly hoping he would drop the subject.

Dr. Walsh seemed somewhat placated. “What does her husband do for a living?”

“He’s a police detective.”

“Ah. And where is Mr. Adler today? I’d like to meet him.”

That was exactly what I was afraid would happen. Averting my eyes, I continued to clean up. “He isn’t here today. In fact, he left her about seven months ago.”

“Perhaps I should speak with her.”

“No,” I nearly shouted. “I mean—that won’t be necessary, Ken. Things have been rather difficult for her, but they’re getting better. I think it’d be best if you didn’t mention her husband right now.”

“I see.” Clearly, he didn’t understand at all.

“Thank you.”

Dr. Walsh continued to change in silence, warily eyeing me. He must have come to the conclusion that it really wasn’t any of his business and dropped the issue altogether.

As soon as Stephanie was settled in her room, I went to join her. I stood in the doorway, watching her quietly for a moment before entering. The nurse was in the bathroom prepping her toiletries when Stephanie’s eyes caught mine.

I recalled when we first met at our neighborhood barbecue. She was standing next to the picnic table, spooning potato salad onto a plate when I arrived. As I picked up my own plate, Charlotte Taylor quickly made introductions.

When told I was a doctor, Stephanie chuckled. She said I looked more like a logger or a bouncer than a doctor because of my size and broad shoulders. She’d blushed after the admission. She was so beautiful, with her long hair flowing freely down her back, gently swaying in the breeze. She wore a soft rose print summer dress revealing long, shapely legs and soft, creamy skin.

I was instantly captivated. Then, like a bad dream, her husband approached, introduced himself and held out his hand. Quickly, I regained my composure. Within minutes I’d determined that I disliked the man immensely. He talked down to his wife, eyed all the other women openly, and was boring.

Stephanie’s eyes shifted back to the nurse as she returned to the room. The nurse brought me up to date on her vitals, and I nodded appropriately. Only after the nurse left did I pull up a chair next to the bed, took Steph’s hand in mine, and kiss it gently.

“You did fine in there,” I whispered, “and the baby will be moved into your room as soon as you recover from the anesthesia.”

She smiled. “How did you know I wanted the baby in my room?”

“I just knew.”

“Thank you.” Fresh tears pooled in her eyes once more. “She’s beautiful, isn’t she?”

“Just like her mom,” I agreed, brandishing a silly grin from ear to ear.

Always Together

She raised her hand and stroked my cheek. “I love it when you smile. It lights up your whole face and adds humor to your blue eyes.” She proceeded to run her fingers through my hair. “Your hair is getting long, I need to give it a trim.” Before I could reply, she giggled, “And it’s getting more silver.”

“You think so?”

“I’m afraid so. I think I’ve done this to you over the last few months. I haven’t exactly been a calming entity in your life.”

“That’s all right. I wouldn’t have traded these last few months for anything in the world. By the way, have you chosen a name for her?”

“Yes—Tabitha.”

I stood up and squeezed her hand gently. Only once in passing did I ever mention I liked the name. “Tabitha. I think that’s a wonderful name.”

“I know.”

I walked to the foot of her bed to make a notation on her chart. “They’re waiting for me in the OR again, but I’ll be back in a couple of hours. If you need anything, ring the buzzer, all right?”

Stephanie smiled bravely, feigning calmness. “Randy?”

“Yes?”

“How am I ever going to thank you?”

Emotions running as high as they were, I was moved beyond words. With great difficulty, I swallowed past a huge lump in my throat and murmured, “Love me forever.” Then I left the room.

The next few days passed by quickly, and soon Stephanie was preparing for her discharge. Tabitha was dressed in a delicate pink dress and a white knit sweater and bonnet when I arrived to sign her discharge orders.

“I really do wish you’d reconsider,” I admitted.

“I can’t. It wouldn’t be right, Randy—and you know it wouldn’t. Everyone in the neighborhood would be talking.”

“Yes, they would, but I really don’t care. All I care about is making sure you and Tabitha are cared for. You shouldn’t be going home with no one to help you care for a newborn. If you stayed with me, I’d be able to cook and clean for you.”

She looked up into my eyes. “Thank you, Randy, for everything. Tabitha and I will be fine, I promise. And if we do need anything, you’ll be the first one I call.”

I sighed heavily. “All right. You have my beeper number?”

“Yes.”

“Who’s coming to pick you up?”

“I called a taxi.” She grimaced when she tried to tug on her sweater.

I helped her into it. Only then did I notice her braid in disarray. “Cancel the cab, Stephanie. I’ll give you a ride.”

I thought she’d protest, but instead she smiled and thanked me. When she hung up the phone, I turned her by the shoulders to face me. She looked up in anticipation, perhaps thinking I was going to kiss her. When I didn’t, she appeared somewhat dejected.

“Why don’t you let me fix your braid for you?” I offered.

She was temporarily stunned, then slowly grinned. That was the beautiful smile I’d come to adore.

“I wondered if you’d notice. I can’t lift my arms over my head to braid it properly.”

I chuckled. “I can see that.”

“How did you learn how to braid hair?”

“I’m fifteen years older than my little sister. Sometimes she’d stay with me at my place, and I’d have to braid her hair for her. It took some practice, but eventually I became quite good at it. She’s in college now, and if I’m guessing correctly, she’s probably learned how to braid it herself.”

Stephanie giggled, then turned around to hug me. I wished she was mine to hug forever.

We drove home in silence, apparently worrying about the same thing. She was the one to bring it up first. “Do you think he’ll call?”

“Yes . . . or worse. He may show up. She’s his daughter, too.”

“I was worried he’d show up at the hospital.”

“I was too. That’s one reason I consented to having Tabitha stay in your room so soon after surgery. I knew it would bring you peace of mind to know she was where you could see her at all times.”

She reached over and patted my hand. “Thank you.”

I looked over to find fresh tears running down her cheeks. I was at a loss for words.

I pulled into her driveway, pleased to find a strange car parked in the middle of it. I opened her car door and helped her out. Seeing her confused glance at the unfamiliar green Honda parked in her driveway, I explained, “I hired a housekeeper to come in for a few hours each day to help you out. I told her she was to take all orders from you, and you could terminate her at any point you felt ready.”

“Oh, Randy. I don’t know how to thank you. You just keep amazing me at every turn.”

I left once she was settled in. Respecting her need for privacy, I left her alone for the next couple of weeks, only paying her the occasional visit or phone call. Each time I found her cheerful and happy.

But I was shocked when I received the housekeeping agency’s bill, which stated that Stephanie had let Mrs. Emery go after only three weeks. Only three days had passed since I’d last seen Stephanie, and she hadn’t said a word about letting the housekeeper go. I was about to call her from my office when my secretary announced she was there to see me for her routine postpartum checkup.

“She’s here?” I asked in confusion. “Isn’t she scheduled two weeks from now?

“Yes, but her husband called and asked that we move it up, so I changed her appointment. I knew you’d want to see her.”

I wasn’t prepared for that news. “Her husband?”

“Yes, her husband. He’s with her. I was surprised, too.”

I sank back heavily into my chair, stunned. After digesting the information for a few minutes, I went to see the Adlers.

Stephanie sat quietly on the exam table in a johnny. With her head hung, she stared at her feet when I entered the room. Her husband stood across the room like a bulldog, with his arms folded across his chest and his feet slightly apart in a menacing stance.

I shut the door behind me. It didn’t take long for Gary to take the lead.

“Good morning, Dr. Scott. We’re here to find out how Stephanie’s doing.”

“You’re a bit early,” I said, avoiding his eyes. “I wasn’t expecting you for another two weeks.”

“Yes, but we’re anxious to have another child.”

I turned to him. “Mr. Adler, your wife has just undergone major surgery. She cannot conceive for a minimum of six months. The pressure of another fetus against the incision could make the uterus burst open, endangering the life of the baby as well as her own.”

Gary waved my words away as if they were a bothersome insect buzzing around his head. “I don’t think you realize the situation here.”

“Apparently, I don’t. Why don’t you explain?”

“Well, we didn’t want a girl—we wanted a boy. I won’t play games with you, Dr. Scott. I know you’re aware that I left my wife, but I’m back now. And I intend to correct the things she’s done wrong. I only left because I didn’t believe the child was mine. I’m sure you can understand . . . being a man and all.”

Though I fought for self-control, I wanted to pummel his face with my fists. I continued to watch Stephanie for some reaction, but she was void of all emotion, obviously deeply troubled.

Slowly, I picked up her chart. In mock reference I told him, “According to my records, you left your wife because you didn’t want any children. I also don’t see where any paternity testing has been ordered. Why are you convinced the baby is yours now?”

Gary’s face flamed with embarrassment. “The paternity testing will be done next week. I’ve already spoken to Dr. Richardson about it. We’re only here today to see about my wife’s condition, and her ability to produce a son.”

“Mr. Adler, I think it would be best if I spoke to your wife alone.”

“Really? Well, my wife has nothing to say in my absence—and I’m not leaving.”

I was fearful for Stephanie and didn’t want to create a situation that could put her in any further jeopardy, so I merely approached her gently. “Could you lie back, please?”

I called my nurse in and performed an exam. Stephanie openly wept throughout, apologizing and blaming it on postpartum depression. Her husband ordered her to knock it off, but clearly it was beyond her control.

Once finished, I announced she was healing well but that she still needed several weeks to fully heal. I reiterated firmly that she couldn’t conceive again for a minimum of six months. I was relieved to find no evidence of her having been raped.

Gary ignored the latter of my statements, inquiring, “What do you mean she isn’t finished healing? How long does that take?”

“It’ll be another four to six weeks before she can engage in relations.”

Annoyed, he paced the room, ordering his wife to dress. Stephanie never raised her eyes or looked in my direction. I made a notation in her chart regarding spousal abuse, and the minute they left I phoned in the report, despite Gary’s position on the police force.

The next few days crawled by in a haze. Stephanie never left my mind. She’d appeared so frail and scared that I couldn’t help but worry about her. Throughout the months we’d spent getting to know each other, she’d confided to me how happy she was since Gary had left. Her marriage had been horrible for quite some time; he was always cheating on her and openly bragging about his conquests to his buddies, even in front of her. He insulted her and resorted to threats if everything wasn’t done precisely his way.

I knew I wasn’t the only neighbor who watched out for her. Most of the neighborhood didn’t care for Gary’s boisterous ways. His flaring temperament didn’t sit well with the majority of us in our quiet little suburb. I must admit I was overjoyed when the Andersons, who live in the house between ours, befriended Stephanie, as well as the Taylors across the street. Those good people never failed to include Stephanie and me to any get-together, regardless how small.

I hadn’t intended to become so attached to her, but soon we were taking evening walks or sitting on her front porch and sipping drinks in the evening. Within just a few short months I knew I was in over my head. My love for her consumed me in a powerful yet helpless way, and being her doctor only complicated matters. I suggested at one point that perhaps I should turn her care over to a fellow colleague, but she adamantly refused. She insisted that our feelings for one another shouldn’t get in the way.

Technically, we were only friends. After all, she was a married woman. We certainly hadn’t broken any rules of propriety. For that very same reason I reluctantly agreed to stay on as her doctor.

A week after the incident in my office, I knew I needed to take a short vacation. Stephanie and Tabitha were all I could think about. I hadn’t been able to sleep or eat in days. I made several attempts to call, but each time Gary either answered and refused to let me speak to her or the phone would ring on and on. I telephoned the police station and was transferred so many times that I lost count.

Finally, a lieutenant came on the phone and told me that the complaint was under investigation. Despite my further questioning, he insisted that he couldn’t disclose any information. All I could do was to pray for their safety.

I hoped that a few days at my cabin at the lake would clear my head. Without a second thought, I packed and left that evening. Still, I was haunted by memories of Stephanie. Would I ever be free from her? I was tormented with recollections of her—like the day she told me she was pregnant and her husband had left her.

It was a gloomy, overcast day, and I’d been up all night dealing with a difficult birth. I had just arrived at my office when Stephanie appeared for an appointment. I should have recognized the name instantly on my schedule, but it didn’t connect until I saw her. There she sat in my private office, bravely facing a pregnancy alone. She announced that her husband had threatened her with an abortion or separation.

Apparently, he had a daughter with his first wife and rarely saw his child. He had never discussed with Stephanie his desire not to have children. She was left reeling when he made his proclamation. As a devout Catholic, she couldn’t bring herself to terminate the pregnancy. Consequently her husband left, but not without first making it clear that he’d be staying at his partner’s house . . . his female partner.

Many times I asked her if she intended to file for divorce. But she’d explain that her husband was the type of man who needed to make the first move or there would be hell to pay.

“In the meantime, I’ll just sit back and wait to see what he does,” she’d said. “Although Gary allowed me to work as a hairdresser, I was never allowed to use that money to contribute to the household expenses, so I have quite a bit in savings to fall back on. As long as I’m thrifty, I think I can manage financially for about a year. After that, I guess I’ll have to return to work. Regardless, I won’t file for divorce. Gary is going to have to be the one to act on that.”

I was uneasy with her approach. “Do you want him back?”

“No, I don’t ever want him to come back. At first I thought I missed him, but I really just missed the routine. I’ve never felt happier or more at peace.” After a long pause, she added in a whisper, “Besides, I think I’m in love with you.”

Her admission startled me, but once spoken, I was ecstatic. “I love you, too, Stephanie.”

The embrace that followed would stay in my mind forever. The child she carried would be raised as mine if she consented, but I knew I couldn’t broach that subject yet. I finally did, however, in her eighth month. She wept with joy in my arms, but she said she couldn’t make that decision yet. I understood and agreed to give her all the time she needed.

After a week of fishing, swimming, and canoeing at the lake, I began to relax. When I packed up to return home I knew what I had to do: Despite Gary’s attempts to keep me from Stephanie, I was determined to see her. He’d already spent two weeks at home and I knew his own vacation time was running out. He had to leave the house at some point, and I intended to be there the minute he did. If Stephanie wanted me out of her life, then she would have to tell me herself. I intuitively knew he was holding her prisoner. Regardless of my calls to the police station, no intervention had been done on Stephanie or Tabitha’s behalf.

As I drove home, I gave careful consideration to my approach. I had to make her realize that I’d do whatever it took to keep her and the baby safe, even if she didn’t want to pursue a relationship with me.

I turned onto our quiet street and was virtually thrown into a chaotic scene too unbelievable for words.

Just as I approached Stephanie’s house, I saw her bolting out the front door, carrying the baby like a rag doll with her. She was screaming hysterically as she ran across the front yard and into the street, in the direction of the Taylors’.

Charlotte Taylor, who was outside watering her flowers, stared in disbelief as Gary gave chase with a baseball bat in his hand. I screeched my Jeep to a halt in the middle of the street, bound from the seat, and ran after him.

Just before Gary reached Stephanie, I tackled him to the ground. Never before had I committed such an act of violence as I found myself beating his face with my fists, just as I had wished to do two weeks earlier. I rendered him nearly unconscious by the time Sam Taylor pulled me off him. Police sirens sounded in the distance. Charlotte had pulled Stephanie and Tabitha into the security of her home, locking the doors behind them.

When the police arrived, they immediately arrested Gary. The shock and disappointment on the their faces was apparent when they recognized one of their own. Regardless, they couldn’t deny Stephanie’s own blackened eyes and dislocated shoulder.

Her statement to the police made me want to brutalize Gary even more. Apparently, the fight started when Tabitha began crying and no one could settle her down. Gary was trying to get ready for a baseball game and was feeling harried. He suddenly declared, “I know how to shut the little brat up.”

He tried to pull the baby from Stephanie’s arms, but she refused to give him the baby. Her resistance infuriated him, and he punched her in the face. Even then she continued to clutch the baby to her breast like a life preserver. Gary violently grabbed at her arm repeatedly until he dislocated her shoulder. By some miracle of God, Stephanie managed to hold onto the baby. That was when Gary reached for his baseball bat. That split-second was all Stephanie needed; she leaped to her feet and ran for the door.

Stephanie and Tabitha were taken to the hospital; Gary was taken to jail. I stood in the middle of the street, not knowing what to do next. Sam clapped me on the shoulder and said, “Looks like it’s all over—for now.”

At home, I went over the events in my mind. Charlotte and Sam brought Stephanie and Tabitha home from the hospital. Later, in the early evening dusk, Stephanie appeared on my doorstep.

“May I come in?” she asked meekly. “I didn’t know if you’d ever speak to me again after my visit to your office.”

I opened the door fully for her. Tabitha, who was sleeping, stirred in her mother’s good arm. “May I take her?”

Gently, she placed the baby in my arms. I took her into my room and put her in the middle of the bed, where she could sleep quietly. I returned to the kitchen and joined Stephanie at the table.

She tried to cover her face with her hands as she cried, but her sling prevented her. I wrapped my arms around her.

“I never wanted him back, I swear!” she wailed.

Shh.”

“He showed up one day, out of the blue, and he threw the housekeeper out. He told me to stop lounging around, and he demanded to know who was paying for the services. When I told him it was you, he said he’d show you not to mess around where you didn’t belong. He didn’t want me—he just wanted to keep us apart.”

No matter how I tried to comfort her, she needed to continue. “I told him to get out. I’d changed my mind. I told him I wanted a divorce, but he said that if I tried he’d take Tabitha and I’d never see her again. He said . . . he said . . . ” She sobbed.

“None of that matters now, Stephanie.” I needed to know why everything had ended in such a mess. Why my heart had been ripped from my chest, when I was so sure I was on the brink of building a future with her and Tabitha.

As if reading my mind, she continued. “It does matter. He said that in his line of work, he knew how to disappear and never be found again—and that’s what he’d do if I didn’t take him back. Then he dropped the biggest bombshell: He said that he wanted a son immediately. He said that was the only way I could make up to him what I’d done to him by deceiving him with the first baby. I couldn’t believe it; I’d never deceived him, never. It was just an accident.”

“Hush, Stephanie. I know you didn’t.”

“He forced me to go to your office. He warned me to not say a word. I was so afraid, Randy, I didn’t know what to do. I love you so much. He has literally held me prisoner for the last two weeks. I’m not even allowed to use the phone. When you told him I still wasn’t healed, he was furious. He ranted all the way home about how his grandmother had given birth every year for fourteen years, and she’d had all boys. He couldn’t understand why I was incapable of giving birth to even one boy.”

The report of his cruelty infuriated me. I held her in my arms but realized my fists were clenched. I cursed myself for not doing more to protect her from Gary that day in my office. I should have known that reporting him to his commanding officer would accomplish nothing.

As I held her, I felt shame as well. How could I have doubted her love for me after all this time? I took her face in my hands and kissed her bruised lips tenderly.

“I promise you, Stephanie, that no one will ever harm you or Tabitha again.” She continued to weep in my arms as a horrible thought came to me. “Did he hurt you? I mean . . . ”

“No, he never raped me. He was too angry at both of us for not going through natural childbirth. If I’d been able to, he probably would have forced himself on me. I’m not sure why he even came back at all. I think it was more out of pressure from his peers than anything. I never cheated on him, Randy. It was all a lie. He had to have some reason for leaving me.

“Before I came over tonight, I called his first wife. She told me he accused her of adultery, and he actually filed for divorce the day their daughter was born. He was so angry over the sex of their child. I never even knew Gary had a daughter until after we married. Only then did he tell me, because the state had started garnishing his wages for child support.

“He told me that the child wasn’t really his. He said that was why he divorced her, and I was stupid enough to believe him. How could I have married such a monster? I keep asking myself how I could have been so blind to the real Gary. I’m a fool, Randy.”

“Stephanie, you’re an intelligent woman. What could you have done? Besides, would you have believed Gary’s first wife if she’d warned you? You told me yourself how smooth Gary was when you first met him. You told me he literally changed overnight after you married.”

She nodded in agreement. At that, she stopped questioning herself and wept silently in my arms. I held her throughout the night.

Now, a year later, we are blissfully happy as newlyweds. Stephanie’s divorce was difficult, to say the least. A lengthy trial allowed her lawyer to present evidence of Gary’s temper toward her and the baby. His first wife took the stand to tell her own story of his violence and abandonment over the birth of their daughter. The judge was clearly moved and only allowed Gary supervised visitation. It was further ordered that the house was to be sold and any profit was to be split equally. Child support was set, and Gary let out a cry of outrage.

A month later, he showed up at my office unexpectedly. He offered me the opportunity to adopt his daughter, stating he would do anything to get out of paying Stephanie any of his hard-earned money. We all returned to court and adoption papers were filed.

Now life is so much more fulfilling. At our annual summer neighborhood gathering, I realized just how truly thankful I am for the day Stephanie entered my life. My heart overflows with joy at the sight of her and our daughter. I was holding Tabitha when Stephanie came bouncing across the lawn with a grin stretched from ear to ear.

“Charlotte and Sam are going to take care of Tabitha for us while we’re away next month for your reunion,” she announced.

“Wonderful! Tabitha will be fine with them.”

I put the baby down so she could become acquainted with the Andersons’ new puppy. A large diesel engine truck coming down the road made us all look up. We watched as our new neighbors pulled into Stephanie’s old Victorian home with a large sold sign posted out front. The Greys would be a delight to the neighborhood. They already had two little girls and twins on the way. The neighborhood was coming alive once more with young children.

As soon as they parked the U-Haul, we called them over for hot dogs and hamburgers. They accepted immediately and more introductions were made.

Mature Friends Enjoying Outdoor Summer Barbeque In Garden

Later that night, after Tabitha was tucked into bed and the lights were out, Stephanie reminded me of a question she once asked me. “Do you remember when Tabitha was born and I asked you how I could ever repay you?”

I cradled her in my arms. “Yes, I do. I told you to love me forever.”

She grinned slyly up at me. “I will, you know.”

“I know.”

“I went to see a colleague of yours today,” she announced.

“You did? Who?”

“Dr. Walsh.”

“Why?”

“Because it’s against medical ethics for you to deliver your own child—and since you’ve already done that once, Dr. Walsh was only too willing to oblige me in delivering our second.”

I nearly jumped out of bed. “We’re going to have another baby?”

“Yes, we are.”

“Thank you . . . thank you so much,” I murmured in her ear.

“No need to thank me. You played a big part in it, too, you know.”

I kissed her deeply. “And you know, Steph . . . I don’t care if we have a house full of girls.”

“I already knew that.” She planted another passionate kiss on my lips. “I’ve always known . . . ”

From Jane Austen Film to The Lobster, Love Blooms

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If superhero summer blockbusters at the theaters aren’t your thing, might we suggest some alternative options for your viewing pleasure? If you’re looking for a little romance, comedy and the brilliant writing of Jane Austen, may we suggest Love & Friendship. Directed by Whit Stillman and starring Kate Beckinsale, Chloë Sevigny and Stephen Fry, Love & Friendship centers on beautiful widow Lady Susan Vernon (Beckinsale), who has come to the estate of her in-laws to wait out colorful rumors about her dalliances circulating through polite society. Whilst there, she decides to secure a husband for herself and her rather reluctant debutante daughter, Frederica.

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Too often, Austen adaptations are cosseted, corseted and more than a little bland; under Stillman’s typically deadpan direction, the author’s deliciously spiky sense of humor is joyously restored. Because so little can be directly said in Austen’s universe, the art and endless pleasure comes from the ways in which people speak their minds and hearts indirectly, until such time as they can no longer box up their emotions and all is revealed in a climactic blurt. So “Love & Friendship” is a film to make an action fan tear his or her hair out; it’s all walking and talking. But what talking!

And for those of you that love your romance with a twist of the supernatural, might we suggest The Lobster. Colin Farrell stars as David, a man who has just been dumped by his wife. To make matters worse, David lives in a society where single people have 45 days to find true love, or else they are turned into the animal of their choice and released into the woods. David is kept at the mysterious hotel while he searches for a new partner, and after several romantic misadventures decides to make a daring escape to abandon this world. He ultimately joins up with a rebel faction known as The Loners, a group founded on a complete rejection of romance. But once there David meets an enigmatic stranger (Rachel Weisz) who stirs up unexpected and strong feelings within him… At once a full immersion into a strange and surreal world, and a witty and clever reflection of our own society, THE LOBSTER is a thrillingly audacious vision fully brought to life by Lanthimos and his terrific cast.

The Lobster has a unique wit, surreal worldview and enviable unwillingness to conform to conventionality that will mystify some viewers and enchant others. If you’re open to embracing a film that declines to pander to expectations, you should definitely make a date with The Lobster.

Dark Mysteries Shine In Las Vegas Neon Lights

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By Katherine Sharma

Last week I took relatives visiting from abroad to Las Vegas–because foreign tourists see its neon-magicked, cigarette-and alcohol-hazed glamorization of fantasy and vice as a top American entertainment experience.

history of vegasThe glitz of Sin City long ago ceased to enthrall me, but I admit that the “what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas” world is a perfect setting for mystery novels that I do enjoy. For example, 2015 Edgar Award-winner Chris Albani’s The Secret History of Las Vegas: A Novel offers an original plot in which a near-retirement Las Vegas detective and a South African doctor studying psychopaths join forces to solve a spate of murders implicating a pair of conjoined twins.

 

 

dark eyeDark Eye by William Bernhardt features psychologist Susan Pulaski, a Las Vegas police consultant whose life has spun out of control after the death of her cop husband, ending with an LVPD pink slip and a trip to detox. As a serial killer begins decorating Sin City with the horribly disfigured bodies of once beautiful young women, Pulaski is trying to regain her job and reputation, and stop a madman. She gets surprise help from a 25-year-old autistic savant whose unusual perspective forces her to see the crimes from a bizarre–but ultimately insightful–viewpoint.

For a different Vegas journey, try Ron Chaney’s Tony Hillerman Prize-winning The Ragged End of Nowhere, which stars a former CIA agent seeking his war veteran brother’s killer in the Vegas criminal underworld, a case complicated by allegations that the victim was in possession of a stolen ancient relic. For more mysteries set in Vegas, check out http://www.indianprairielibrary.org/books-movies-more/book/1199-all-time-faves-what-happens-in-vegas-mysteries-set-in-las-vegas

ABOUT  KATHERINE SHARMA

Katherine Sharma’s family roots are in Louisiana, Oklahoma and Texas. But after her early childhood in Texas, she has moved around the country and lived in seven other states, from Virginia to Hawaii. She currently resides in California with her husband and three children. She has also traveled extensively in Europe, Africa and Asia, and makes regular visits to family in India. After receiving her bachelor’s degree. in economics and her master’s degree in journalism from the University of Michigan, Katherine worked as a newspaper and magazine writer and editor for more than 15 years. She then shifted into management and marketing roles for firms in industries ranging from outdoor recreation to insurance to direct marketing. Although Katherine still works as a marketing consultant, she is now focused on creative writing.

‘Poison Pens’ Find Dangerous Cyber Power

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By Katherine Sharma

The poison pen letter has been a plot device in some classic murder mysteries. For example, Dorothy Sayers’ Gaudy Night and Agatha Christie’s The Moving Finger featured these cruel communications–anonymous notes sent to the targeted recipient or third parties to humiliate, intimidate and discredit.

A pen and ink letter seems quaint in this digital age. But the malice of the poison pen not only still exists, it has been further empowered by technology. Cyberbullying is one modern manifestation. Hurtful words and images can be unleashed 24/7 with free, anonymous clicks and delivered to large online and mobile social networks. The consequences have been especially devastating for vulnerable teenagers. Statistics show that 15% of high school students reported they were victims of cyberbullies in 2013, and the rising number of highly publicized teen suicides due to cyberbullying has sparked national concern.

splinterSome well-known mystery authors have taken note and incorporated cyberbullying in their plots. Start with Val McDermid’s Splinter the Silence, featuring psychologist Tony Hill and former police detective Carol Jordan. The plot centers on the mysterious deaths of several outspoken feminists who were the victims of vicious cyberbullying. It is assumed that the torrent of abuse overwhelmed them and caused them to silence themselves in high-profile suicides. But Hill begins to see something even more sinister at work.

 

 

roadside crossesIn Roadside Crosses by Jeffery Deaver, his protagonist Kathryn Dance of the California Bureau of Investigation is called in when roadside crosses start appearing along the highways of the Monterey Peninsula–not as memorials to past accidents but as markers for fatalities to come. After the driver in a recent fatal car crash, a gaming-obsessed teen who’s been the target of cyberbullies, vanishes, Dance’s manhunt takes her into the illusory world of bloggers, social networks and cyberbullying.

 

boar islandFinally, veteran mystery writer Nevada Barr has penned Boar Island (an Anna Pigeon Mystery). Anna Pigeon, a National Park Service Ranger, finds out that the adopted teenage daughter of a friend is being victimized by cyberbullies and offers an escape by asking them to join her at her new post in Maine’s Acadia National Park, staying in a house on nearby Boar Island. But a cyberstalker follows them, and soon Anna is dealing with a brutal murder as well.

For more information about cyberbullying, read https://www.stopbullying.gov/cyberbullying/what-is-it/

ABOUT  KATHERINE SHARMA

Katherine Sharma’s family roots are in Louisiana, Oklahoma and Texas. But after her early childhood in Texas, she has moved around the country and lived in seven other states, from Virginia to Hawaii. She currently resides in California with her husband and three children. She has also traveled extensively in Europe, Africa and Asia, and makes regular visits to family in India. After receiving her bachelor’s degree. in economics and her master’s degree in journalism from the University of Michigan, Katherine worked as a newspaper and magazine writer and editor for more than 15 years. She then shifted into management and marketing roles for firms in industries ranging from outdoor recreation to insurance to direct marketing. Although Katherine still works as a marketing consultant, she is now focused on creative writing.

How Bad Sex Is Like…Golf

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There are a few things we like and a few things we don’t. Golf and bad sex are at the top of the “do not like” list (unless it’s mini golf, hell yeah!). Here’s a few reasons how golf (playing, watching, any of the above) can be like bad sex.

It takes forever

There is a certain cut off point where sex goes from fun to just stop trying already. Just like fetch, stop trying to make it happen, it’s not going to happen!

I’d rather be on a golf cart

It looks a lot more fun than this lolly-gagging laziness and hanging out and puttin’ around. Need a little more excitement than what’s going on here.

I’d also rather be drinking in the club

Not sure why I’d wake up early or leave another party early to be here in this snooze-fest. Bring on the alcohol, maybe I’ll go party with those people instead and stay at hole 12 (and hopefully your hole isn’t hole 12 for the day which may explain why this is going so badly now).

golf coupleStupid outfits

Just get me out of this as quickly as possible. Why is this even necessary when it makes getting from A to B more difficult. Rip them off of me please and let’s get this going.

There’s lots of guys

Wait…this actually might not be a bad thing. We’re unsure. Whatever you’re into.

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